我一进房间就差点跪倒在地。乔治去找灯的开关，房间里一片漆黑，里兹一把过来拽我，我跟他一起摔倒在地。我浑身发冷，头像泡在水里，一切都是模糊的，我不受控制地颤抖，膝盖以下都是像针扎一样密密麻麻的疼痛，四肢末端都是这种感觉。他紧紧地抱住我，我们躺在地上，乔治开了灯，一瞬间的光明刺激的我不受控制地流眼泪，他立刻又关上了，but fuck god I could barely see anything at all. It was just pain and a strange craving for something I knew that I wasn't supposed to crave. His eyes were blazing black fire，I saw the pain in them too. Ritz，I was mummering，Ritz，even like begging，let me，I said，I need it，just let me… He said nothing. He held me in his arms so tight，we were on the floor and it was all cold and dry and hard，my back hurt. I could not look straight in his eyes，his face cold，statuesque，and miserable. And George，George kneeled beside me，calling me，put kisses after kisses on my head and my face，so soft and so warm，my sweet George. But nothing would do. I cried out，I think that was what happened，I heard heartbeats，like thunder，but no way to recognize it. I think I was writhing and rolling，the pain was killing